Over the past several months I have been struggling with changes in my life that had left me feeling relatively uneasy and out-of sorts. And, as hard as it has been at times, I am thankful because it is given me pause to rediscover the things I really think have become important to me. Becoming a Mommy to the Twins has been the biggest life and priority change I have ever experienced. It used to be that my darling husband and I could just pick up whenever and do just about anything and all we really had to think about was the dog (and maybe the chickens.) Now, I have to make plans way in advance and going anywhere for any length of time is a huge project.  Don’t get me wrong, I am blessed and I am thankful for every moment that I get with my kids, but having a quiet moment this afternoon to digest the last 6 months of our lives has left me to do some thinking. There are lots of things that I have definitely taken for granted, so, I came up with a list of 3 things I am especially thankful for this holiday season:

1. MAKING NEW FRIENDS (AND KEEPING GREAT OLD ONES)-  This year I am especially thankful for new friends (and old friends who have really worked hard to stay in my life despite all the changes.) I think I have always taken friends for granted. I have always made superficial friends relatively easily at work, or church, but I haven’t every really worked on making deeper connections with people until they initiated it. Which is so sad! How many amazing people have I missed out on knowing because I was too full of myself to push past the surface? Making real connections with people is something I am going to work hard at this upcoming year.

2. VULNERABILITY- I think women keep their pain to themselves. (Maybe men, too, but I don’t know?) I was sitting in a group of women recently, and had the opportunity to speak up about our  two miscarriages and how I believed that God had a different plan for our family than the traditional. I was amazed at the response. Most all of these women had experienced the same pain, or knew someone close who had. These women also spoke of needing connections in their lives, health problems and other traumas. This year I am thankful for vulnerability, because we all go through the same types of issues and how can we build each other up if we keep it hidden inside?

3. ENJOYING MY FAMILY- Often times I get so wrapped up in the planning for what we are doing, or the schedules, or the chores that I don’t stop to enjoy my family.

My babies! Even when they are cranky, I am so blessed to be able to experience the joy of helping them grow, I am committing to spend more time enjoying them for all their little personalities are worth (even if that means the laundry doesn’t get done right away.) Every tear, every noise and every smile is precious; I won’t ever get this time with them back.

My AMAZING husband, Joel.  *sigh*  Joel is my rock and the love of my life. He might be the thing in my life I most take for granted, because he is always there to catch me when I stumble.  He is everything I could have ever dreamed of in a husband, and I WILL spend more time this season (and hopefully for years to come) enjoying my time with him. Even if it is a cup of tea on the couch after a long day (or working to complete the 31 Day Challenge.)  🙂

And finally, my parents and my siblings. Over the last several years I have really been able to form friendships with my parents that are beyond what I had ever expected, they are wonderful people and I am so blessed to have them as my friends as well. I LOVE YOU BOTH VERY MUCH.                                                                                                                                                My brothers and sisters are all younger than I, and I think watching them grow up and become real people has been such a blessing. It seems like just yesterday you were all toddling about, and now you are almost all adults. I want to form relationships with all of you that goes beyond siblings to real deep friendships, and I commit to you moving forward that I am going to work hard to form and maintain those.

My life is filled with so many blessings and after rereading this, my heart is full. I have so very many things to be thankful for, it almost makes that hard stuff seem unimportant. I hope you all have a great holiday season, and I will be back you after the holidays!



One response to this post.

  1. Posted by Danielly on December 15, 2011 at 3:51 am

    Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your heart! Your words are so encouraging and remind me of God’s faithfulness in all areas of our lives.



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